This is where the metaphorical castration starts. At least that’s what it felt like emotionally.
Daddy’s supposed to make the happy choices and do the right thing, be prudent and protective and provide… Right? Hours before, I thought I was…
I had no idea how critical a DVD player was to the sanity of my little family.
If the DVD player was whacked, then I wonder what else was off? I went hunting for the darkness, finally seeing “reality” for the first time. To name a few:
The driver’s side door rattles like it’s going to fall off, constantly. On a new truck?
The dash is loose so that it cracks and pops at random times.
The weather trimming of the door is loose.
There is a thin film of paint that covers the entire car as if it sat in a paint shop and collected overspray.
The leather seats look like they’re 40 years old, covered with a red substance that looks like it was hard to clean off.
There are knicks and scratches everywhere on the exterior AND the interior as if the Blackford had already been beaten to submission by a bevy of children.
The digital screen on the navigation had a milky film on it.
I mentioned we had a road trip coming up to “break in” the Blackford. Eleven hours was plenty of time to let the results of my hasty decision impload my manhood.
Here’s what happened… ALL I COULD SEE WAS THE WARTS.
So there I was, driving my family around in a 2013 Ford Expedition Limited 4WD with 440 miles on it that I got for $20k off. Beautiful black with a hint of red and it felt all rotten. At a glance, people would see the truck and think one thing, but I knew the “truth.” It was laced with “salvaged” and “second-rated-ness” and “fake-ness.”
So what about us?
Are you looking through a milky screen, hearing the rattles, and feeling the scratches and THAT is all you can think about yourself?
As you struggle to move forward and mystify the demons in life and business, it’s hard to silence the rattles. The constant nagging reminding you that you’re a nobody, you’re rotten, you’re a fraud, you’re not good enough.
The real truth is, you are a brilliant human with the ability to create just by choosing to… and yet all we can think about is how we’re broken, and wrong and not cut out for greatness… or that we’re missing something. Always searching. Always chasing for something greater as if we don’t possess greatness.
“Surely, if I can’t get myself to do this one stupid thing I know I need to be doing to move my life and business forward…. this one simple habit (or stop a bad one), there must be something wrong with me.”
Stop that. There is more to see and it’s right in front of your face.
If you feel this way in your life and in your business, get on the phone with me.
Tomorrow, as if the Blackford Chronicles couldn’t get any worse… it does. And it’s epic. Read part 4 here.
Go. Fight. Win.
P.S. If you found a seemingly good deal on a sweet vehicular that happened to be a branded title, what would you have done? Well… first thing I should have done was to consult a professionally auto body tech. He could have easily seen what I couldn’t.
Sometimes, you have to pull in a professional to see what you can’t (big reason why I do these Instant Breakthrough calls). Because we see only what we want to see, the good or the ugly. At first, all I could see was the good. Then, what seemed like minutes later, all I could see was the bad. Wish I would have had the smarts to pick up the phone and call someone who would have told me the truth exactly as I needed to hear it.
If you have no idea what this Blackford gibberish is all about, you missed my post yesterday. When you’re done reading here, go grab it for context.
So there I was, neck deep in the euphoria of our new family vehicular a Black Ford Expedition (Blackford). I’d done my daddy thing by providing, protecting and saving some cash and good vibrations came along with it.
In all honesty, I expected that kind of new car euphoria to last longer than an evening though (it didn’t).
We were set to hit the road on an 11 hour trip the next day to break it in.
With little ones belted to their seats, the DVD accessory is kinda important for sanity sakes. Fact is, that was the single biggest selling point for my wife and really the only thing she cared about.
Kid you not, I’d not even showed the new wheels to my wife before kid 1 freaks out that there are TV’s in the new Black Ford. He’s the kind of kid that can’t control his enthusiasm. A second later he’s running around the car and screaming the news to the neighbors.
Ah sure, let’s see how they look, son. I says. Semi-gloating in my purchase.
That’s when it all started.
Who would have tested the DVD players before driving off the lot? You just kind of assume that stuff works as advertised. Besides, I didn’t have any kids with me at the car lot, no reason to fire them up. Wish I had.
Dumb things were deader than the chicken I ate for dinner last night.
So what does this have to do with you?
Have you ever gathered your guts on a Sunday night selling yourself on the idea of finally making a change and sticking to it?
“Yep. That’s it. It’s going down. Monday morning, everything changes?”
You’re going to do this and that and the other thing. Smash your morning routine and workout, be productive throughout the day, come home a conquering hero and spend quality time with the family before going to bed earlier than ever?
What did it feel like going to bed Sunday night?…
Prolly like I felt driving the car off the lot. A bit so euphoric you couldn’t sleep (so you go to bed late don’t you?)
What did it feel like Monday or Tuesday when the wheels came flying off the tracks despite your best intention and effort?
Prolly kinda like I felt after I first realized I’d allowed myself to be completely oversold.
What about you?
When it comes to making profound change in your life as an entrepreneur, do you oversell yourself only to get stuck in the same cycle of guilt and shame once the inevitable failure to take action and stick to change happens?
Dude, I feel you. That sucks. And it’s probably sucked for a long time.
Instead of overselling yourself and failing, why don’t you get on the horn with me for free and let’s talk about what’s REALLY possible for you?
P.S. In case you’re wondering, I took the Blackford back and they put in “new” DVD players that actually work but are on their last legs because they can’t handle my kids.
P.P.S. I actually went back and made a huge list of all the things I’d learned from this Blackford melt down. This was item 11 on a list of 24. No, I’m not going to share them all with you. But what you should do is be conscious of what’s going on in your life. Don’t let life just happen to you. If life were a classroom, what can you learn from it in order to score well on the final test? People tell me that I blow minds on these short calls I’ve done… but the biggest item on that list blew MY mind. I’ll share it with you later.