This is where the metaphorical castration starts. At least that’s what it felt like emotionally.
Daddy’s supposed to make the happy choices and do the right thing, be prudent and protective and provide… Right? Hours before, I thought I was…
I had no idea how critical a DVD player was to the sanity of my little family.
If the DVD player was whacked, then I wonder what else was off? I went hunting for the darkness, finally seeing “reality” for the first time. To name a few:
- The driver’s side door rattles like it’s going to fall off, constantly. On a new truck?
- The dash is loose so that it cracks and pops at random times.
- The weather trimming of the door is loose.
- There is a thin film of paint that covers the entire car as if it sat in a paint shop and collected overspray.
- The leather seats look like they’re 40 years old, covered with a red substance that looks like it was hard to clean off.
- There are knicks and scratches everywhere on the exterior AND the interior as if the Blackford had already been beaten to submission by a bevy of children.
- The digital screen on the navigation had a milky film on it.
I mentioned we had a road trip coming up to “break in” the Blackford. Eleven hours was plenty of time to let the results of my hasty decision impload my manhood.
Here’s what happened… ALL I COULD SEE WAS THE WARTS.
So there I was, driving my family around in a 2013 Ford Expedition Limited 4WD with 440 miles on it that I got for $20k off. Beautiful black with a hint of red and it felt all rotten. At a glance, people would see the truck and think one thing, but I knew the “truth.” It was laced with “salvaged” and “second-rated-ness” and “fake-ness.”
So what about us?
Are you looking through a milky screen, hearing the rattles, and feeling the scratches and THAT is all you can think about yourself?
As you struggle to move forward and mystify the demons in life and business, it’s hard to silence the rattles. The constant nagging reminding you that you’re a nobody, you’re rotten, you’re a fraud, you’re not good enough.
The real truth is, you are a brilliant human with the ability to create just by choosing to… and yet all we can think about is how we’re broken, and wrong and not cut out for greatness… or that we’re missing something. Always searching. Always chasing for something greater as if we don’t possess greatness.
“Surely, if I can’t get myself to do this one stupid thing I know I need to be doing to move my life and business forward…. this one simple habit (or stop a bad one), there must be something wrong with me.”
Stop that. There is more to see and it’s right in front of your face.
If you feel this way in your life and in your business, get on the phone with me.
Tomorrow, as if the Blackford Chronicles couldn’t get any worse… it does. And it’s epic. Read part 4 here.
Go. Fight. Win.
P.S. If you found a seemingly good deal on a sweet vehicular that happened to be a branded title, what would you have done? Well… first thing I should have done was to consult a professionally auto body tech. He could have easily seen what I couldn’t.
Sometimes, you have to pull in a professional to see what you can’t (big reason why I do these Instant Breakthrough calls). Because we see only what we want to see, the good or the ugly. At first, all I could see was the good. Then, what seemed like minutes later, all I could see was the bad. Wish I would have had the smarts to pick up the phone and call someone who would have told me the truth exactly as I needed to hear it.